I’m trainning for a new title. So like in March 2009 my new title will be: Aunt Crystal! Ta da! Woohoo!

Wow, I’m really happy and excited. I can’t wait to meet my nephew/niece. I’ve been waitin’ for 10 years. So right now I’m in my room with “Uncle” Mick and “Uncle” TC. I’m kinda bored, there is no one to talk to, they went to bed early… I can’t wait to tell the Coles. I keep going over the ways I can tell them… I think I figured out how.

Some times life is an odd thing. At times there is SO much hope, hate, love, agony, war, pain, and some times peace. But I enjoy feeling all of these emotions. It may hurt SO much at times, but I know it’s all for a reason, that life is worth living, that there is something after death, even if it is only for a few people who believe and give there life to Jesus. I love experiencing these things. Some times I enjoy debating life, even if I’m agreeing and disagreeing with Gregory House… Who is some what of a atheist… and who is not even in the room, he is on tv…. Yeah, I’m weird.

Some times I don’t want to remember the people who die. Thats cold, I know, but I would be depressed all the time if I remembered them. Maybe people should morn the people they know/knew. To each his own… I don’t know.

Well, I quit my job a while back. John Seemed kind a withdrawn when I told him… I’m not sure how he took it. A bit shocked maybe. I wish it had turned out better. Maybe it was just one of those days, who knows. I’ve been unemployed for a month plus, probably nearly 2 months. It’s okay though. It will all turn out good. Ruth told me one day that she sensed that I was going to find a job, and that it will be fulfilling for me in all aspects, like personal and um I can’t remember all of what she said. But it helped me. I mean I know I’m gonna find a job and that God will take care of everything, it’s just I wasn’t sure of… things. But it’s all good now.

Well I seems as though a door has been opened, and maybe another closed. or maybe it is closing. I guess my dad told Jeremy that I probably wouldn’t be coming to work anymore, and Jeremy or my dad told our boss that I was looking for full time work else where. Yeah big surprise huh? I can’t say I was expecting this to happen like this, or rather, hopping it wasn’t. But it is what it is. It’s time to move on. It’s for the best. I would like to say goodbye to a few people. You know Tony, Karl, David, Dave, Don, Cathy… Terry… ok so quit a few people. I don’t want to burn any bridges. Thats the last thing I want to do.

The good news is there is a data company here in town. So if thats what I’m suppose to do then let it be.

Crystal

1930: I don’t think I can drag my self to work tomorrow. I am just sick of it. I can barley stand to think that I work there. Even though I haven’t come into work for the last week. and tomorrow to make it even worse, I have to drive to Versailles to my co-workers house so he can drive us to Campbellsville to work for I don’t know how long and not even get the stinkin’ job done.

2153: Well, I’m not going to work tomorrow. I had to call Dave to let him know I wasn’t going to meet him at his house in the morning. I hope he doesn’t get the wrong idea (the wrong idea being he thinks I’m just a lazy ass that doesn’t want to work. It is not true that I don’t like work, in fact I like work, I just can’t stand Allied anymore). I’m trying to decide if I should come in any more, or if I should just quit Monday… You know how abused wifes and people are? They don’t like getting beat, but they love they’re husbands, so they don’t leave. I just don’t want some thing like that to happen. When the time comes to leave the company, I don’t want to have trouble leaving for some odd reason. I’m sure that doesn’t make much sense but I can’t seem to put it into the right words. Tomorrow I’m going to apply at a couple of jobs. Fazoli’s and maybe some other place.

I just get so depressed thinking about work. There has to be a point when you have to quit because you just can’t stand it anymore. There just has to be. I, life is so confusing, and some things are so weird and bad. and everybody goes by “Hollywood” standards! Why?!? I guess that is a for a later post though.

Speaking of Hollywood on a happier note; the writers strike is over . Isn’t that great. People get there jobs back. and we (I know I’m selfish) get Lost back, and hopefully NCIS. I’d be pissed if we didn’t. Though there shouldn’t be any reason not to. Because NCIS was getting some of the top ratings before the strike and even after. So they better give us NCIS.

I could keep typing forever (especially tonight I don’t know why but my typing is doing pretty good to day ) except I keep forgetting to put the ‘m after I, so in the end I get these weird phrases. I gotta go now. Keep it real Director C Clark

Well, I got a root canal. I was actually better than when I went before Christmas. Hurt less and all that jazz. I just need to go in and get a crown. Then I’ll be done with that . But enough of that.
Christmas was good. Got to spend time with the family, eat yummy food and drink, play games with the brother and open presents *big smile*. If you’re wondering what I got I’ll tell you.

What I got for Christmas by me: Two sticks of 1 GB ram for my new laptop (I have a very nice brother), NCIS season 4 DVD box set, The Game of Life: Twists and Turns – board game, 3 music cds: Nodes of Ranvier – Self titled album & The Years to Come and Mortal Treason – A Call to the Martyrs, 2 books: The Legion of Space and The Cometeers By Jack Williamson, a couple of collapsible camping cups, some pajamas, $150 from my dad to help pay for my laptop, a light that you plug in to a cig lighter.

I think I’m missing something, but I can’t remember what. That was pretty much it anyway though, I think. lol.

John and I are having a LAN party tomorrow night and Saturday night . So I’m really siked. Too bad my friend can’t make it. But something didn’t quite feel right about that anyway, so I guess its ok he can’t make it.

I want to sell my current computer and build a new one. My current one is a nice Dell special, but I want a more powerful CPU with a nice case, a powerful GPU, lots o fans, and a 22 inch LCD screen. oh and I can’t forget that I some day want to run 2 GPUs (you know the geforce SLI stuff.). I can’t do that right now. So…

I gotta get some sleep, long night tomorrow and the night after. G’night people, and have a great weekend .

Crystal

This sucks. Tuesday night I got a toothache. So today I finely get in to see the dentist and he says I got a cracked tooth! So now I’m going to get a damn root canal. and Christmas is in a few days… He said that it should have been hurting before Tuesday. I guess it prolly would have if I had been chowing on that side. I think I’ve had the cracked tooth for a few months now… Well, nothing I can do about it now.

I got a bonus from my boss, it was $450.50. Thats a lot of money. Plus, every year he gives a $100 to every employee for Christmas. He is a nice boss. I don’t know what I’m going to do with that 100 dollars. I bought a laptop with my bonus. Its a HP Pavilion, AMD Athlon 64 x2 1.8 GHz, 1GB ram, Nvidia GeForce Go 7150M, HD screen, Media remote, DVD burner w/ Lightscribe, and a bunch of other cool stuff.

I need to get to bed now, so later cool ppl.

Crystal

Weelll, it’s almost X-mas. Thats kinda sad that it’s almost over, but I’m happy with it being winter and all. I just wish it would snow like real snow at least 3”. I would really, really love a white Christmas. There is just something about winter that I love, you know, the snow, Christmas, the smell when it’s cloudy and snowing, warm fires, X-mas tv specials, warm cozy beds, a cat in your lap staying warm, snow days, snow ball fights, hanging with your friends in the snow, hot coco, Christmas trees, the music, sledding, snowboarding, X-mas presents, giving, spending time with family, the fresh air… Getting kissed under mistletoe, taking a walk in the snow while holding hands with your boy friend, getting chased by your boy friend in the snow…

I love winter, if you can’t tell… Well I need to get to bed.

Have a Merry Christmas and God Bless,

Crystal

Dumb writers strike… They only have one, you know 1, oun, episodes left and then we won’t have any more NCIS till the writers strike is over, *mean look pointed at the writers*. Look guys I can understand you want more money and stuff, but, you can’t just stop writing and mess up our shows and movies. Your just gunna mess up Hollywood. Get a stinkin’ deal done and start writing again. Please!

What do your astute ninja-mossad senses tell you?

Tony DiNozzo – NCIS, 5.6 Chimera