Work

1930: I don’t think I can drag my self to work tomorrow. I am just sick of it. I can barley stand to think that I work there. Even though I haven’t come into work for the last week. and tomorrow to make it even worse, I have to drive to Versailles to my co-workers house so he can drive us to Campbellsville to work for I don’t know how long and not even get the stinkin’ job done.

2153: Well, I’m not going to work tomorrow. I had to call Dave to let him know I wasn’t going to meet him at his house in the morning. I hope he doesn’t get the wrong idea (the wrong idea being he thinks I’m just a lazy ass that doesn’t want to work. It is not true that I don’t like work, in fact I like work, I just can’t stand Allied anymore). I’m trying to decide if I should come in any more, or if I should just quit Monday… You know how abused wifes and people are? They don’t like getting beat, but they love they’re husbands, so they don’t leave. I just don’t want some thing like that to happen. When the time comes to leave the company, I don’t want to have trouble leaving for some odd reason. I’m sure that doesn’t make much sense but I can’t seem to put it into the right words. Tomorrow I’m going to apply at a couple of jobs. Fazoli’s and maybe some other place.

I just get so depressed thinking about work. There has to be a point when you have to quit because you just can’t stand it anymore. There just has to be. I, life is so confusing, and some things are so weird and bad. and everybody goes by “Hollywood” standards! Why?!? I guess that is a for a later post though.

Speaking of Hollywood on a happier note; the writers strike is over . Isn’t that great. People get there jobs back. and we (I know I’m selfish) get Lost back, and hopefully NCIS. I’d be pissed if we didn’t. Though there shouldn’t be any reason not to. Because NCIS was getting some of the top ratings before the strike and even after. So they better give us NCIS.

I could keep typing forever (especially tonight I don’t know why but my typing is doing pretty good to day ) except I keep forgetting to put the ‘m after I, so in the end I get these weird phrases. I gotta go now. Keep it real Director C Clark

 

Hmm

Well, this is kinda cool (I think). Who knows. I don’t.

You know I’ve always wanted say something profound. But it never turns out the way I would like it to. I guess thats why I’m a person of few words (at leased out loud).

Its like a friend asks me for advice on something important , but I can’t seem to give any. It frustrates the hell outa me sometimes. I mean I can’t seem to give it when I need too. My mind goes blank when someone asks me for advice. Maybe I should take a thinking class, maybe a speech class too…

Why is it people think that is collage the answer to everything? I mean some of the most successful people in the world never went to college.. what is it with people!?! Collage is NOT the answer to everything. A lot of people go and never use the their degree, or even work in the field they studied! Now, I know you are going to say that it will help you get a better job and all that stuff. Half the time it doesn’t. Degree’s can help a lot in some cases. Sometimes they can’t. I’m not sure I want a degree, I mean I want one but I’m not sure I could make it through collage. I learn differently, a lot of the times I have a hard time learning like every one else. It’s scary cause I’m still debating whether or not I want to be an NCIS Special Agent. If I go to the film school I can afford they won’t give me a degree, so if I decide I want to work at NCIS after I go to film school, I’d have to get a 4 year degree and spend more money, and more importantly time. I’m so torn between becoming a Film Director or an NCIS Special Agent you know, torn between love and my country. There is just something SO attractive about fighting crime, I don’t know what it is. But I love making movies etc, I just, I can see the big picture, and I’m good at that type of stuff. I hate feeling torn like this.

Well. I guess I should stop pondering for now.

Keep it real guys

Crystal