Crystal’s Ponderings

Some times life is an odd thing. At times there is SO much hope, hate, love, agony, war, pain, and some times peace. But I enjoy feeling all of these emotions. It may hurt SO much at times, but I know it’s all for a reason, that life is worth living, that there is something after death, even if it is only for a few people who believe and give there life to Jesus. I love experiencing these things. Some times I enjoy debating life, even if I’m agreeing and disagreeing with Gregory House… Who is some what of a atheist… and who is not even in the room, he is on tv…. Yeah, I’m weird.

Some times I don’t want to remember the people who die. Thats cold, I know, but I would be depressed all the time if I remembered them. Maybe people should morn the people they know/knew. To each his own… I don’t know.

Well, I quit my job a while back. John Seemed kind a withdrawn when I told him… I’m not sure how he took it. A bit shocked maybe. I wish it had turned out better. Maybe it was just one of those days, who knows. I’ve been unemployed for a month plus, probably nearly 2 months. It’s okay though. It will all turn out good. Ruth told me one day that she sensed that I was going to find a job, and that it will be fulfilling for me in all aspects, like personal and um I can’t remember all of what she said. But it helped me. I mean I know I’m gonna find a job and that God will take care of everything, it’s just I wasn’t sure of… things. But it’s all good now.